why

do i have so much freaking accounts....
http://ashbopop.tumblr.com/

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

thanks luis for always being there for me and making me open my eyes. I don't agree with everything your saying thou.

Anyways.. life could be better

Been awhile

(05/08/10-05/09/10) ANTONE's birthday night was awesome! More pics of that night but I love our relationship more!!

A lot has happen since my last post, my birthday, antone's birthday, and just letting go.
I passed all my classes THANK GOODNESS!!! and I am ready for Summer! Actually, my summer already started and so far so bad ass.
That's all for now....

ps. i just wanted to be there for you. but your making me hate you, a feeling i thought i would never have....

I HATE YOU

but i some how am forgiving you. its not you. its the other person you created.

I hope

that me hanging out with your friends doesnt make you dislike me. i love your friends. i love that they bring me into their lives. I love that they told me they want me around more.

I wish sometimes you didnt ignore me. i wish sometimes you let me in again. what did i do wrong. I have a clue but i dont want to face it.
I miss you. I miss your friendship. The fact that your almost nothing to me makes me sick.

Seeing old friends makes me the most happiest person alive. Esp. those old friends that i care for.

In order for me to start my new beginning I must be the one to make the changes first.

things are looking up for me.
I have made new friends. Which I dont think they're enough thank yous to tell God.
Life is pretty awesome right now.
Minus...eh...

Everything is smooth. I feel like I can breath again.
I will be turning 21 in 24 days 8). I am just really excited to go to Houston and visit my family.

My grandma and grandpa are super excited. My grandpa has not been feeling so well. I think we all just need time to get out of corpus. Houston is not the topping to my cake I rather be in Austin, but I need to stay connected with the little family I have. <3

that is all.

ooo ps.
I am proud to say that Seth is looking good. I mean compare from when I saw him in Austin, he is looking great. I hope he comes out of this. :( I can almost feel him trying to yell out. His friends and family are strong and he is strong.

THIEVES

"There’s thieves among us, painting the wall With all kinds of lies, the lies I never told at all What’s in my pocket? You never knew You didn’t know me well, so well as I knew you …And I know, and you know too That love like ours is terrible news But that won’t stop me crying No, that won’t stop me crying over you I’m not a prophet, old love is in me New love just seeps right in, and makes me guilty Why do you look like that? It’s not all that bad I’ll see you sometime, sometimes lonely isn’t sad …And I know, and you know too That love like ours is terrible news But that won’t stop me crying That won’t stop me crying over you No, that won’t stop me crying over you We two are makers, just made this mess Two broken hearts don’t break any less There’s thieves among us, painting the walls With all kinds of lies, the lies I never told at all …And I know, and you know too That love like ours is terrible news But that won’t stop me crying That won’t stop me crying over you No, that won’t stop me crying over you "