The drama that is going on in my life is the reason why I need to get the fuck out of this small town.
Seriously!!!

Me and Antone have shared our differences and get into fights. But I love him and we managed to patch things up all the time. Whatever happen in the past with other guys was way before me and antone.
So this whole "i cant believe she would do that to antone" is fucking stupid.!!!
There is just to much to write right now and I dont know where to begin.
Why do some girls like to interfere with other ones life?
Why do some girls think its ok to be best friends one min with someone and then go behind their back.
I guess thats why they managed to struggle with their own shitty life.

I hate the fact that I gave so much trust to a friend not to mention all the times I covered her ass. All the times I was there for her when her other half was an asshole. Then to find out she goes behind my back and make up these ridiculous stories. Seriously "ashley kept a scrap book of him" WTF and then for people to believe that. haha.
I never been the type of person to pick fights or anything like that. I never been the person to start shit either. Its funny how no matter how much I keep to myself and dont listen to what other people have to say I always get FUCKED!

people believe the negative things and never want to hear the truth. You know were all adults... you might still be stuck in high school. BUT FUCKING STOP RUNNING YOUR MOUTH AND IF YOU WANT TO HEAR THE TRUTH AND LAY IT ALL OUT CONFRONT ME!!!

that is all..

xoxo,

vintage

Where to begin...
Yesterday, Abby had her baby shower for "Charlie". It was fun. I miss her family so much. Nothing has changed about them. Her grandma, mom, and sister are all still the same. Not to mention her grandpa always talking to you like you did something wrong. haha
I miss her so much. It felt so good to have my close set of friends together. It was very emotional for me. I cried. (I cry for everything.. nothing new)
PS. I didn't win nothing at the baby shower... of course :/

After the shower, we all decided to hang out and go to Val's new apartment. MAN its sooo far!!!! but o so nice!
but seriously, it's like im going out of town or something. That girl worries me. Im not even going to get started on that subject.

Living on my own is awesome.

When our least is up, Andrea will be moving back to her parents and I think Jonathan and I

will be looking for a new apartment soon. But I think we are going to look for a town home this time .

I wish my parents and I could get along, sometimes I could move back with them as well. I just can't. I miss them so much but, most of the time it gets ugly. I swear they are so unhappy it makes me depress. On a personal level. I haven't had an anxiety attack since I've moved out. I don't even have to take "happy" meds anymore.
Luckily I have Anthony to keep me sane when I go visit them.
We get along so much now-a-days. Im getting use to him sleeping with me. Sometimes I have to beg him to stay or her has to beg me to stay with him. On that note, Im glad he is NOT PSYCHO!! 3 years and 2 months.

Halloween is coming up. Im not sure what is going down, but I don't think I want to do anything this year. I think I want to rent creepy movies and stay home. Eh, maybe not. I just know that I am going to be snow white hopefully. I think this coming pay check is going to SUCK HARD. but we'll see.

I haven't post something in a long time, so hopefully I kind of caught up whats on my mind.

that is all.

WOW

I cannot believe how ugly it feels to have a full time job and a full time school schedule. I can do it I know I can. I need to stop taking long hour naps as well. I finally brought some centrums so I really hope they do some kind of jutice to my body.
On that note; I have a stye from hades :( It hurts and I cannot blink without it hurting.

Despite the fact that I will develop major eye bags at the end of the semester life is awesome.
Same ol same. I haven't made a new freind yet. Maybe a couple but nothing major. ha.

Eh work is getting busy brb

Tattoos

So, I don't know...
My grandma is trying to convince me into removing my tattoos and I think it is working. I think I might want to keep my roses only.. I know this is crazy talk. I dont regret anything. But maybe these things are just not for me.
When Im around people that I normally hang out with doesnt bother me at all. But when I go into the "real" world i feel different. Like creepy different. Maybe it cause some of the people that I idolize dont have them.
Im sure this is something that will bother me for one day.
What ever my grandma says plays a huge part in my life. Blah I dont know.
I think im going to look into wrecking blam. maybe i could fade them without them actually leaving.
Can you even have tattoos removed anyways?

that is all

Reverse

Ok so it looks like I did not have the day off today. Blah Val called in so Hanna called/texted me this morning to see if I wanted to come in. I said ok.
O well today is the last day of the pay period so I win in some sense.

I have to wake up super early tomorrow morning for school. I did some studying today just not enough. That was my whole plan was just to study all day. Work is too distracting to accomplish anything :/

I really wanted to make a quick trip to SATX tomorrow. Antone, has to work manana at 4. blahhh
O well, maybe it just was not meant to be. Either that or maybe I'll built some guts and go by myself yea right!

I applied at Grande when I was paying my bill. Looks like a cute fun front desk job. I really wouldn't mind working in a small office.

I think I am just blogging cause work is boring Roland left home early and there is no action right now.

blah
that is all..

Juicy

Wow I am so glad they gave me the day off tomorrow. I know its going to hurt my pocket, but sheet man I need some kind of break. Even, thou it is just for one day I think it will do my body good.
Work is so full of drama. Just cause I do my job and tell others what they need to improve on I get shit for it. I really need a new job already. I am getting sick of hearing the same shit over and over. Then again, Holiday Inn has been really good to me. What other job will put up with me being a few minutes late almost every other day. I am trying to work on that thou.

Andrea is starting to worry me. She is talking about moving out already. Our lease is up in January but I still think that is a long way from now. I kind of want to move back with my parents but then I dont. I really dont know what to do. I want to save my money but I cannot stand my parents for so long. What surprises me antone said he was looking into some apartments. He said he would get a better job and everything. That shocked me. It really impresses me that he even took the time to look.

The nights are starting to feel real good. I cannot wait till fall comes. I cannot wait for hoodie weather.
I am trying to write in my blog and jonathan keeps talking to me and distracting me.

I miss antone.

that is all.

Girls, Ladies and Women go through tough times

Being a girl sucks. We have this ugly nasty thing that comes every month. That comes with crazy mood swings.
I feel really blah today, not sick, not happy, not sad, just blah. It is so weird. No event has happen to make me feel that way either. Girls' bodies suck. At least I know another month went by and I'm not pregers. ha.

In other news, I really wish I could get away sometime. Sometimes I feel I should just be left alone. If I had time and money to waste I would get up and go to Austin. I wouldn't go visit my friends and family I would just go to be alone and do some release stress shopping and do my quick stop to the capital. Every time I go to Austin I always like to stop by the capital. That place is amazing, filled with greed and corruption, but amazing.

School is going to take over my life this semester. My classes are actually interesting and the instructors are great. So it shouldn't be that bad.
I think I need to get a new job.
I miss a lot of things and a lot of people.

That is all.

xoxo

FALL '09

School this semester seems like it is going to be awesome! I have some pretty cool teachers.

Western Civilzation

Earth Geo

American Gov.

College Algbera

Pretty tough classes but, I can do it. I hope!

Between work and school I am pretty sure I'll cry in the middle of the semester haha.

I can already feel the insantity creeping up.

Work is starting to get slow. FINALLY!! another busy summer weekend and I just might have to walk out.

FUN FUN FUN FEST is coming up. Last years line up doesn't compare to this years. Youth of Today should of played.. I really want to see 7 seconds <3

That is alll.

"Fall seven times get up eight"

So, let me just say I am starting to run out of user names..ha.

I guess I need to be able to vent without having to waste paper. Cause I know right before this year ends I'll probably do away with this blog.

Any who...

Life is pretty rad! Hotel life is the same. Why does everything in life turn into a routine? Wake up go to work greet, complain how its too early, check people out, answer phone calls, and check-ins. Story of my young-adult hood.

Antone and I are doing amazing. Never have I felt so close to him. He makes me smile. We get into these annoying arguments that make us laugh at the end. Being so much alike has its ups and downs. But, coming home to him after a rough day is perfect!

My schooling at Del-Mar is almost done, next semester I need to start hustling scholarships and etc. I really want to go to St. Edwards! I really want to say that I got my MASTERS at a university that is not in Coprus. I really want to see what adventures I get myself into. I have too many goals and I feel like I don't have a lot of time.

PS. Jay-Z pretty much owns my music player right now.

O and Yesterday Antone and I had a round of couch comando he won! We ended up watching women's golf. Ugh men and their sports! Its funny I woke up this morning turned on my tele and what do you know BASEBALL BASEBALL!! haha