"The Air"

Started my day off feeling a little bit nauseated. Damn you cranberry vodka..
Work wasn't that bad compared to yesterday. I was yelled at and I also had to do some cracking down on my peps. I stayed till 5.
Work isn't on my mind I don't know why I am even talking about that place...

I have decided to keep my distance from him. A person cannot make a huge change on another mind. It just doesn't work that way. I can stay positive maybe praise him for what an awesome person he is and all his talents he is capable of doing. But, I cant tell him what direction to take.
This whole situation makes me sad, makes me have bad thoughts, makes me loose sleep.
His very good friend, let me know that times will be rough, yet they will be ok. To hear that from his close friend makes me happy. His friend is wonderful. He knows the real him he sees what I see. It makes me content, that I have people like him in my life and in his. I am crying thinking about this....

In other life news...
I never give Anthony the appreciation he deserves. I love him so much for being here for me. I hate that I sometimes get afraid to tell him what is going on in my mind. I just always been the person to keep things to myself. He is wonderful. I cannot wait till Friday. A little get away is what we need. I ran into my friends last night. They said they will give me a call on Friday so we can all hang out.


Ps. if you so happen to stumble into my blog. Please read. I made this blog for me. If I made it for me, why did I post it on my profile that anyone with wondering eyes can stumble on it.. well I am me. I am tired of having thoughts stuck in my mind. I want to be able to express myself and let the world, my friends, my family know the real me.. sort of speak.
vibe on...