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I went kind of shopping today. This might sound dumb but I dont know how else to put it. I think I might of stumble into some new fashion. haha at least for me.

I went over to his house yesterday. I dropped off an article that he wanted, Arizona tea, 3 boxes of sour patch kids, hand sanitizer, chap stick, and a note.
The note kind included a closure. I really do not want to talk about it. I just want to cry every time I think about it. I hate this. blah.

Why do I feel like I need to be alone? Why do I put Anthony through such bullshit? I try breaking up with him, but i end up hurting myself. This person inside tells me not to do it. Anthony is something real and I shouldn't let him go. But I am such a bad person to him. blah

My voice is starting to reappear again. Thank goodness. I hate being sick. who loves being sick eh?

I hope I am doing the right thing!
That is all.